I am writing this journal entry because I am done with today. I am going to close my eyes and pretend it’s tomorrow. Today is stupid. It sucks. I was sick all night yesterday, roaming the house in search of medicines. Then I remembered what Dadi always says “when in doubt, eat Crocin” Don’t. Does not help.
So, I wandered lonely as a cloud with something that feels like a cold in the nose, tar in the throat, and summer on the skin. In a bad way. I woke up with no appetite. I am now in acid down my throat through my nose, my body in the pain phase of sickness. And I am on my way to Sikkim. And I have not carried any warm clothes. Because it’s so hot and I want to enjoy the cold. I am stupid.
Yesterday the high point of my day was: dancing in the kitchen with baby R. Like the world could not see us, touch us. Yelling, singing and dancing, a party of 2. Today the high point of my day was: finding Ortivin to finally unblock my nose. Then we, baby R, and I played a game that made me decide against ever having babies. She would point a toothbrush at a bag, and I would say “Stupid bag”, and she would laugh. Over and over for 10 straight minutes. Her first word might very well be ‘stupid’.
Which reminds me; for this stupid Sikkim trip, my family is going with 3 more families. Or 4. We don’t know. We might absolutely abhor them, which if we were to trust experience, I will. But I have sworn to not click family portraits and ‘dps’ of aunties in front of tourist spots. Well, let’s hope we get that far, right now I am doubtful. My mother has made 14 calls to the maid giving instructions about things she handles every day. Loss of control can make my family go bonkers. Utterly and surely crazy. Papa is going to start controlling everything we do, at least try to, any moment now. R is listening to music loudly to drown the conversation about underwear that mum is trying to have with her, and papa is trying to reduce the volume. Oh! And I watched Bahubali twice. So now I have not seen Lunch Box but have seen 2nd part of Bahubali, twice. Movies are stupid. The bag is stupid. Stupid bag. Stupid.