Tiny revolutions
In my family, issues either live under carpets or are aired publicly. Arguments happen loudly, meanly, between egos who were never taught to feel or communicate. The …
Of big wins and timely hugs
I went to a dermatologist to understand some precautionary measures when starting mood stabilizers. A very heavy task at the end of a mind-numbing week of bad …
Welcoming my mind back
I came back to my room yesterday. I am still isolating, but I shall be doing that on MY bed, next to my plants, my lamps, the …
OC
It has been 80 days of living in an obsessive-compulsive mind. It took 80 days for my mind to regain the power of articulation. Then again, I’ve …
101 ways of losing someone
1 We lost her often, to hospitals, train stations, and anonymous hiding places. One time I lost her at a new hospital. I walked into the corridor …
What’s that metal bird in the sky?
TW: emotional abuse I have an aunt, related closely enough that I can’t avoid meeting her at least once a year. Close enough that it was impossible …
On getting by
Look at this photo. Commit to memory its colors, lights, empty spaces; my kaki’s body– 12 chemos, 5 operations, and 4 organs lighter– walking itself out of …
Stay, for a while
Today I stayed in bed for 10 minutes after I woke up. For 10 whole minutes, I could suspend the to-do lists, the charging of devices, checking …
The anatomy of suffering
What do you do about suffering that is not yours, that you nevertheless feel boring into your gut? Kaki has cancer again; ‘again’ being the operative word. …